For anyone who is still checking this, I'm sorry for the continuing hiatus. I'm still alive, but I've been dealing with some difficult/miserable situations. I'm still being watched and I really hate it and I've gained 10 pounds and my jeans don't fit. And I asked out a guy who seemed to be really into me and he said we should just be friends. He's now dating someone much skinnier than me. That's barely even skimming the surface, but every night I spend time wishing I was dead. Sorry for the melodrama, I'll see you again maybe soon.