When I said I was worried about my supposed best friend wanting me out of her life, it turns out I was right. Because now that I'm interested in Dubstep boy, she has decided she wants him for her own. I didn't realize until recently that she has this problem, but she very much likes to poach other people's partners and potential partners. So now there's an awful love triangle going on. Plus I think she's going ahead and telling him all the things about me that will crush a potential relationship. It's fun to get back stabbed. I haven't heard from him in about 4 days now, I'll give it maybe one more week until I give up. I found out on fb last night that they were out at a restaurant with everyone we know and when I replied to the post she made clear that I was not invited. It's times like this when I hate being alive because what's the point when your friends and family treat you like shit?

Just so I wouldn't have to be alone for part of tonight I had a work friend over for beer and a few hands of Magic. We are like the most awkward adult nerds ever and he always has to leave relatively early to go home to his family. So now I get the pleasure of being sad and alone and slightly sick (I think I'm allergic to alcohol maybe, I only had one beer). All the people I usually text to abate loneliness are busy having fun because it's Friday and they have lives. I wish I'd realized this would be a pathetic hateful binge kind of night when the store was still open. :/