Wine hangovers make me feel like death warmed over all day. It probably doesn't help that I drunkenly purged my dinner last night. While my friends were over. And they could totally hear me do it. At the time, I was beyond giving a fuck. This morning I sent out some apology texts and was informed that I was a complete mess when everyone left but that they still love me. And they want me to find a new therapist.

Didn't make it to the gym today, I felt like if I tried I would just end up blacking out or throwing up from the exertion. Tomorrow I'm off and I will make up for today by doing extra time and going to a long yoga session.

There's an open supervisor position at work but I'm not applying for it because I don't want to deal with the rejection. As soon as I heard about the ass kissing bitch that had applied I knew there was no point. He's gonna get it and be terrible and I hate him.

I keep telling people that I'm completely over the Boy so they'll stop telling me he's a jerk and not worth my time. But secretly I still like him and wish it could work out. Despite the whole part where I would be terrified to sleep with him and let him see me.

I feel like I'm slogging through molasses today. Everything is too hard and complicated.