I was right, it's not convenient for my friends to help me occasionally. Which is funny, because I'm always there when they want help. Guess who isn't doing shit for anyone anymore. Me.

I was on the phone with my mother today and told her I will never fall in love and be with anyone. She said it was good that I knew I wasn't ready for it at the moment. I told her she wasn't listening to me, that by never I meant never. I said that everyone leaves and it's not worth it. I also mentioned that I think her husband is a jerk and we will never get along, and that she's got too many problems and that's why I have a bad relationship with her. I guess I'm being too honest with people today. I wonder if she cried about what I said.

Everything sucks and I hate people and I wish I didn't have to be here anymore.