I've been sleeping too much again. I come home from work and "nap" for 4-6 hours, get up to smoke and maybe eat, then go right back to bed again for another 10-12 hours. I also won't leave the house unless I absolutely have to. Since I work, its not quite as bad as the summer a few years ago when I never even went outside more than once a week, but it's frightening to see the pattern returning.

I've been feeling lonelier than normal. I realized that if something were to happen to me, it would probably be a week before anyone bothered to check that I was alive. It's awful to think that at 27, I'm exactly the kind of person who should be subscribed to the Life Alert service that old people use.

I'm supposed to make an appearance at a birthday party tomorrow night. I really wish I'd make up an excuse, I hate standing around awkwardly at these kinds of things. I'll probably leave early so I can go home and hide in my bed.