After two months of daily binging, something has shifted. I noticed last night when I lost interest mid-binge. Today I went on autopilot while I was cooking and made a huge amount of food, then I stared at it and kinda nibbled at it during the day. I don't know why it changed, but I hope it stays like this for a while. It's always three steps forward and two steps back with me, and I need to just learn to work with it because every time I get a little bit smaller and a little bit stronger.

The best part of restricting is how focused I am on my goals, to the exclusion of all my normal worries. When I walk around feeling empty, I also feel strong. And I'm going to need so much strength to break the attraction I have to the Boy and at the same time work to keep myself safe from the Creep.

Be strong, love yourselves. Xoxo