It's not cute (and is in fact creepy and upsetting) when someone tries to shoehorn themself into your life as some kind of instant boyfriend. This isn't the first time, although dear god I would love for it to be the last. Creepy guy is now always texting me and trying to take me out for twilight strolls near the lake or at the cemetery (I'm especially bothered by that because I'm big on romantic dates at cemeteries and don't want that to get ruined). Also he tries to pick me up after work every night and take me home. And days when I don't feel like fighting about it, there's always an awkward moment when he drops me off and I think "this is the time he's finally gonna try to kiss me." So far not yet, but I almost wish he would hurry up so I could hate him openly and have that as an excuse. I plan to slap him across the face like heroines do in old movies.

I've been in a semi binge mode for a long time now and it's ramped up tremendously in the last week due to stress. So now my clothes aren't fitting right and I've lost the feeling of my hip bones and it is making me more stressed and exacerbating the problem. I'm off work for two days, maybe I can regroup and swing towards the middle or back to major restriction.

In an incredibly stupid move, I'm trying to break myself of the crush on the Boy by focusing on the hot new supervisor that got hired at work. And yeah, it looks even worse written down than it does in my head. I need to get out of this place, its ruining my life.