Trying to recover some semblance of normal function after being in the grip of massive anxiety all day. I had been pressured into making plans to hang out with the coworker guy, and due to my inability to do anything at all today I flaked without any explanation. I'm trying to come up with a suitable lie to explain my absence, probably something about having a migraine (I do get them so this is a viable excuse that doesn't involve me talking about my mental health issues).

I looked at thinspo on tumblr and tried to focus on being happy about having bought smaller jeans last week because all the ones I owned were too big. Its helping a little. They make my legs look thinner. I haven't weighed myself or recorded my calories lately, it gives me an easy out when I see my therapist and she asks about restriction or the scale. I can do it all in my head at this point anyway, although the lack of accurate weight checking every morning is difficult.

Stay strong xo