I'm so tired and frustrated. My rent was due yesterday and I don't have the money. I haven't even been spending the money on frivolous things, it's all gone to medical bills and public transportation. At least food is not an issue (har har) since I was approved for food stamps last year.

Met with the psychiatrist yesterday. I've been so completely depressed and anxiety ridden lately that I didn't even fight against the idea of long term meds this time. I just told her I wouldn't take anything that was going to make me fat. Supposedly this one won't make me gain a lot because if it does I will stop and tell her we have to try something else. My googling on the subject gives conflicted results in the studies where they've used it on persons with EDs, it seems some of the patients lost more weight during treatment. I would guess that when the depression lifted the binging was easier to control. I hope I am one of those people.

I went to a Target pharmacy to fill my new prescription since $4 generics are the only thing remotely in my budget. But after all the stress of the morning, I spent my time waiting for them to fill the prescription by picking out binge foods in the grocery department. A can of frosting and 2 large bags of chips were involved. I woke up this morning feeling so gross.

I hope you all are having better luck than I am. xoxo