Lab results came back from the blood work my doctor ordered. I'm vitamin d deficient and my white blood cell count is low. They put me on mega strength vit d supplements. And also I'm on antibiotics for an infection that popped up this week. Loss of appetite is a common side effect for both, and I'm definitely feeling it. Which I'm pretty sure defeats their whole agenda, but I'm not complaining.

All my friends are out of town for the holidays or have moved away. So I'm bored and more than a little depressed and lonely. I tried drinking last night but that just made me more upset and I ended up having horrific nightmares and then woke up in a panic because I'd stopped breathing. Fucked up my whole day because the images keep running through my mind. I was trying to save the boy from a bad situation and didn't make it in time, so even though it wasn't reality I'm all worked up and worried about it and he's not working tonight so I can't see him and be reassured that he's ok. Its stupid, but that's how my brain works.