Stayed at my mom's house this weekend. Now my pants are tight from eating carefully but being unable to restrict or smoke much. Fuck. So upset. I think I gained 5 pounds in 3 days.

The one good thing is that my mom for whatever reason does not think its strange that my grocery shopping mostly consists of baby food. So restricting like crazy for the next couple weeks to get back down will be dead easy since everything is safe and premeasured and ready to eat. But I still want to cry because I am so fat. I'm scared to weigh myself.

No therapy this week either which should help keep me from being upset and binging.

Think thin thin thin. :/